WW - stolen, but well worth it.

I am guilty as so many others are of feeling like a failure when all things don't go as planned. I am guilty of this in so many avenues of my life: my role as a wife, mother, friend, family member, blogger and so many more. For this I need to remember:

 

I borrowed it from her. She got it from here. Either way, I love it and I will try my best to make it my motto in the next few months for the rest of my life

Happy Mother's Day

It is such a bittersweet holiday now. When I look back at my life since last Mother's day, I can't help becoming depressed. I know that I should be happy and focus on the newer memories with my daughter, but I can't. Of course I love finally being a mother of a living child. Of course I am happy with the man I chose to spend my life with. I am grateful that I have a grandmother still living. I am thankful for my MIL who treats me like her own. I am thankful that John's grandmother is still here and that she treats me like one of her own too. I am thankful............But I am still sad that I don't have my mother here with me. I do take comfort in the face that she is with Him and that I will see her again one day, but that doesn't take the hurt and the anger away. I loved that woman so very much and it was literally heartbreaking to watch her wither away, both physically and mentally. Obviously with a brain tumor and treatment the person changes. There is literally no way possible for her to continue to be the same. I basically watched what happens Alzheimer's happen to my mother in a matter of four months. And it isn't fair, but I know that life isn't fair. Today went as well as expected. We went to church with John's mom, we then went and ate at my parent's tonight. I spent the afternoon with my grandmother (Ma) and if anyone else had a harder time with today than I did it was Ma. I think she just needed us with her today. She cried when she read the card I gave her. Now don't get me wrong with what I said earlier because I do love that woman with my whole heart. I basically just wanted her to know that she is my second mother and everything she has done for me in my life is honorable. And while her child isn't here on earth anymore that I would always be hers. Fro some very strange reason, after my mom died, I can't even begin to tell you how many people told Ma that they were sorry that she would be all alone now. Who would do that, but I am glad she didn't feel this way at all because I heard her tell more than one person that she felt that she had four children and that three of us were still going to be there. And she is right. She does have us. For that fact alone, I love her even more. So Happy Mother's Day to those who have children here on earth, to those of you who have angels in Heaven, for those of you who have been unable to have children, for those who have mothers here on earth and to those of you who have mothers in Heaven. Happy Mother's Day

WW - having a blast at Church

Logan

Luke

Logan after he decided he liked Celia's bike just a little more than his

Celia checking their bike out

Decided to race

They were having an absolute blast

They were literally cracking up