Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Tuesday morning funny

John (DH) started having a small rash on his side this past weekend. Initially he just thought it was a bug bite or two. Then we wondered if it was poison oak and since he had scratched it, that it had spread. Last night he was complaining stating that it hurt a little. All of a sudden, it hit me. I told him that I think he has shingles. He said that he had briefly wondered the same thing, but then forgot about it.

This morning it wasn't any better and he said that he was going to the dr. Don't ask me why or how this came out, but all of a sudden, I said, "well, don't worry, Mama had shingles a few years before she died." It is just those moments when the absolute dumbest things pop out of your mouth. He just looked at me like I was absolutely insane.

I'll update later to let you know if I was right.

Monday, March 19, 2012


To say that my daughter keeps us entertained is an understatement. She is so funny and way too smart. She is going to be a hard one to reign in later in her teenage years. Love her though. She loves as hard as she plays. Here are a few things she has said recently that literally make us LOL!!!

1. If you ask her if she did something or tell her that she can't and she'll reply: "Yes, my did". I know that we should correct her, but we want to enjoy the time we have left that she is our baby.

2. She feeds herself all of the time and is really good at it, but if she gets a drop on her, even if it is on her hand or shirt, she immediately hands it to you and says, "Feed me (Mommy or Daddy)." We'll respond with, No Celia, you are a big girl, She immediately shakes her head and says, "No, I not big girl, I baby and you need to feed a baby."

3. Just this weekend, she has started reverting to infancy. She runs to grab her sippy cup (full of tea) runs to her daddy, curls up in his lap, hands him the cup and says "feed me, Daddy". when he does this for a while (which, of course he does since she has him wrapped), he'll pull the cup away and she starts babbling "Da Da" like she just started talking.

I've got soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many more of these stories, so this may be the start of a new weekly/monthly posting. Let me know if you'd like to hear more Celia-isms!!!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Saturday, March 3, 2012


I have never had a great self-image. I don't know where it came from. It hasn't gotten better since becoming an adult and getting really sick a few years ago. In a matter of three months I went from 140 to somewhere around 220 maybe??? (I can't believe that I am actually writing that number down). I was on steroids and all sorts of other meds for my horrible migraines. Eventually I was able to lose most of the weight and then I got pregnant. I gained WAY too much weight when I was pregnant because I was so sick again. You would think that I wouldn't have gained much since I was sick, but the only foods that I could eat were the absolute worst possible. My beautiful DD was worth every single pound and all of the sickness. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to lose most of the baby weight. A lot of it can be blamed on my inability to be that active (due to my dead and dying hips), but I have to own the fact that my diet hasn't been the greatest.

Also I went through the absolute worst year of my life last year. When my mom was sick and battling cancer last year, I didn't have time to cook and fast food was the bulk of my diet for four months. And then she died, and I turned to comfort food. It didn't help that she died the week before Thanksgiving so the holidays are always hard for me (to watch what I eat) and this year was that much harder. I literally was like, well, my mom died so I need to eat this. This has got to stop. I don't feel attractive at all. I don't know what my husband sees in me. He still tells me that he finds me pretty, but I can't really convince myself if he's telling me the truth or if he just says it because that is what a husband is supposed to say.

One of the newer bloggers I read is Lauren's. She is stunning. Absolutely gorgeous. The above link is one of my favorite posts of hers. I probably was the mean girl when I was young and it all goes back to insecurity. Please check her blog out. She is one of my role models now. I have got to get healthy for me. I need to do this for me to get to the point that I can believe that my husband actually does find me attractive. I need to do this to be a great role-model for my DD. She needs this. My mom felt the same way about herself that I have and maybe it can all be traced back to that, but I want to end this cycle. I want my daughter to be healthy and I want her to feel beautiful in any shape or size.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Scary, but necessary post......

I read this family's story on another blog I read regularaly. It is so very scary because any of you with small kids know that no matter what you do your kids can find a way to get themselves in trouble or get hurt. I know for a fact my Celia has gone through stages that she'll put anything in her mouth. This story really brings how dangerous that is to light.

Here goes:

Kai’s Story
January 4th in the late afternoon Kai who was 14 months old at the time suddenly began to cry inconsolably. I tried everything and could not calm her down. I finally calmed her down and shortly after she vomited all over. I though this was strange since she had a stomach flu a few weeks prior. The next day she couldn’t keep any food down, she would vomit food up immediately but she was able to drink liquids. This went on all day. I began to think she had swallowed something and the only thing I could think of what that she swallowed an earring. I had just bought her new earrings a few days before and I caught her with one in her mouth and couldn’t find the other. I told my husband I had been debating taking her to the ER to get checked out or not, he told me that I needed to take her to be safe. I was convinced that if I left time go on it was going to get better, but I listened to my husband and took her to the ER at about 3 that afternoon. I told the ER nurse that I thought she had swallowed something they immediately took her in for an x-ray. The technician called me over right away and showed me an image of what appeared to be a coin in her chest. When he said it was a coin (which I agreed it looked like) I went along with it. I have a 4 year old son who LOVES change and always finding it and playing with it so this didn’t surprise me one bit.
We were transported via ambulance to a hospital about 2 hours away to get this coin removed because it was stuck in her esophagus and needed to be surgically removed. I assured my husband I would be okay alone (the nurses had told me I would be there over night with her) and I told him to go home and be with our son and come get us in the morning.

We got to the hospital about 10 in the evening and were very quickly taken up to the surgical floor. The doctor came and she took one look at the x-ray and said “now that has to be a battery”. When I heard these words my heart just sank! I knew immediately it was, I had one like that on my kitchen island in its package. She explained to me how serious batteries were and how she had told the other ER to ask me if there was any chance of it being one because we should have been airlifted. She painted a worse case scenario picture to me and a best case scenario to me. Next they took my baby into surgery.

I waited what seemed to be an hours but was only 30 minuets the doctor came in and told me it was a battery and it was caroded and stuck in her esophagus and she needed to call in another surgeon to help her get it out. She informed me that Kai would be in the hospital for a few days. I called my husband with the news and he decided to come to the hospital to be with me. I sat there in the waiting room alone just wanting to hold my baby. It was supposed to be a 30 min surgery that ended up taking 3 hours!

She had to stay in the PICU for 2 days and could not have anything to eat or drink for 48 hours. They had to run some tests to make sure she was safe to eat and drink again. She passed all the tests and was sent home expected to make a full recovery.

About 2 weeks after she choked on a piece of food and I thought nothing of it. Over the next few days she began choking more and more. We were getting ready to move across the country so I made her an appointment and had some tests ran and they said everything was okay to have her seen once we got to Utah, our new home.

We have now been in Utah almost a month and have learned that Kai developed a stricture or a narrowing in her esophagus from scar tissue that has built up. She can eat some solid foods but chokes on anything larger than a crumb. I have learned what food she can mush up and eat but it is VERY limited. She went from being almost 22 lbs to barley 18 lbs. She is now Pediasure and we are back up to 20 lbs. She will have surgery on Thursday to fix this problem but it may not, strictures are hard to fix and can take multiple surgeries. This will be her 3rd time having anesthesia in a 6 week period! If this does not solve it her GI doctor has said we will have to look at putting a feeding tube in her belly. I am hoping and praying we can avoid this by keeping her weight up with Pediasure.

The whole reason I wanted to share Kai’s story is because people do not understand how deadly batteries are to anyone and how fast they start to hurt them. If a battery is swallowed it can start to cause burns and tears within 2 hours! Kais battery was in almost 30 hours! Please, please safe guard all batteries (including button ones) this was the one Kai swallowed. It was one for my car key remote. I never knew how harmful batteries were until this and I want to get her story out there so other parents are aware and we can help prevent this from happening. Batteries KILL so please treat them how you would treat chemicals and other medicine. All of my batteries are now in my medicine bin that is no where near where my children can get to it.

I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I am going to try my best to keep Cecelia safe, but it isn't always that easy. I am going to go home and hug my baby tonight.