Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Am I alone

Today is just one of those days that I struggle with myself. I didn't start this blog with the hopes of having 1000s of readers. I mean it would be great, but since I work full time outside of the home and still want to interact with my husband and child that just wasn't what made me to decide to write about my life.

So much has happened in the 10-11 months since I started the blog. 2011 has been one of the worst years in my life and this has been a great outlet for my pain, but I still doubt myself sometimes. I feel like I am alone.

I don't even know what point I am trying to make today, but I just want to know how many readers I actually have. I am probably one of the worst blog followers as I don't usually make comments and that is something I am going to work on. I really do feel so much kinship with the bloggers I comment on and who comment on here. It is amazing how much you can feel that you actually know bloggers/friends online. Just checking to see how many of you are out there.

I promise that I will be a better blog follower/friend.


  1. aww joy, you certainly are not alone. and you are not a horrible blog follower.
    this may sound crazy, but you know, i remember exactly where i was when i got your first comment. i was shopping at the GAP outlets with my friend. i was having fun but my mind was racing with emotions. an email popped up on my phone and it was your comment. i got teary eyed right there and my friend did too. i had only been blogging for a bit and was so touched at your words.
    we all have those days we questions ourselves...
    just know, you're always in my thoughts and i is truly amazing what we can feel for one another...though never actually meeting...
    you're a true friend and an amazing mama and woman.
    tonight, while driving home from the grocery store, i heard martina's "i'm going to love you through it" and immediately thought of you and prayed the whole time for you and your mother.
    much love.many prayers.

  2. you are completely not alone....we may not always speak up....but your followers are HERE! *hugs*