Two months

June 4th is my DD. Hip replacement will be happening as long as nothing changes between now and then. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nervous, but excited about not hurting after the recovery. I'm not delusional in thinking that June - October won't suck because I'm sure that I will be in pain during that period of recover, but I do look forward to waking up w/o the sharp, aching from my hip to my groin. I obviously have never experienced bone cancer, but that is how the pain from AVN is described in comparison. Hopefully, none of you will ever have to experience it.

I evidently have a pretty high pain tolerance, but it can get very bad some days. Then, there are other days that I barely walk with a limp. Even though it has progressed from a Stage 2 to a Stage 4, I could probably postpone the surgery for a few more years, but I want to be able to play with Cecelia. I want to be able to sit on the floor with her and hop back up. Right now I can get down there, but it takes WAY too much effort to get up. There ain't no hopping going on right now (lol). I want to have two more kids and it would be nice to do that w/o hurting. Though, I can say that my pain was definitely lessened during pregnancy, but it came roaring back after I had her. I'm assuming that the hormones played a huge role in that.

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers for the next five or six months. I think I'm going to need them.