Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Two months

June 4th is my DD. Hip replacement will be happening as long as nothing changes between now and then. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nervous, but excited about not hurting after the recovery. I'm not delusional in thinking that June - October won't suck because I'm sure that I will be in pain during that period of recover, but I do look forward to waking up w/o the sharp, aching from my hip to my groin. I obviously have never experienced bone cancer, but that is how the pain from AVN is described in comparison. Hopefully, none of you will ever have to experience it.

I evidently have a pretty high pain tolerance, but it can get very bad some days. Then, there are other days that I barely walk with a limp. Even though it has progressed from a Stage 2 to a Stage 4, I could probably postpone the surgery for a few more years, but I want to be able to play with Cecelia. I want to be able to sit on the floor with her and hop back up. Right now I can get down there, but it takes WAY too much effort to get up. There ain't no hopping going on right now (lol). I want to have two more kids and it would be nice to do that w/o hurting. Though, I can say that my pain was definitely lessened during pregnancy, but it came roaring back after I had her. I'm assuming that the hormones played a huge role in that.

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers for the next five or six months. I think I'm going to need them.

1 comment:

  1. joy, you will always remain in my thoughts and prayers. i'm very happy for you and think it's awesome that you're going for it now...allowing yourself time to heal and time to play with sweet celia. sending lots of love and tons of luck <3