One treatment down, thirty seven to go

Yesterday was my mom's first treatment. I took off work to go with my dad and it is a good thing. I love my dad with all of my heart and soul, but he doesn't handle stress very well. Of course since it was the first day of treatment, things were not going to go smoothly. We did her blood work first and then went straight over to get the radiation. It didn't take long and we left to go home an hour after her appt time.

We got her out of the car and up the steps at my parent's when my grandmother came running out saying that my brother (who works at the hospital) had called and we needed to come back for the Avastin IV. This was initially supposed to start a few weeks after the radiation, but since the radiation was postponed earlier, they wanted to go ahead and get that started. Daddy didn't even remember them telling us that she would get the Avastin.

He got so upset. I literally made him leave after we got back. I don't mean to make him sound worse, but yells when he is emotional about things. I really do love him and my DH will tell you that I am just like him. We don't have the same opinion on things, but we will both argue our points until we are blue in the face. But today wasn't the time for it. My mom didn't need to have to worry about Daddy losing it. He has been amazing with her since this began. I truly can't imagine what he is feeling watching her go through this. I know my world would be rocked if it were my spouse.

Here is a beautiful song that has made me cry every time I listen to it. This sums up how I feel and how I imagine Daddy is feeling:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6iyU4S7yHFo&feature=share

One More Month

I am completely blown away that my baby girl will be 2 in one month. She is at such a fun age, but I still miss my baby. It seems like yesterday that I had this beauty:

WW - A few recent pics of DD

 

 

 

My DD cracks me up

This past weekend my almost 2 year old cracked me up more than once. She woke up from her nap Sunday afternoon, came running into the living room screaming 'I'm finished sleeping'. She jumped into her swing (which we brought downstairs because it has been a consistent 100 degrees outside for over a month) and started swinging. All of a sudden, she hopped off and jumped on her little tykes John Deer tractor and screamed, my green tractor. I finally realized that we had the TV on Country TV and 'My Big Green Tractor' by Jason Aldean was on. Ha!!!

Another time she was trying to put on some Dora flip flips that my MIL bought her earlier this summer. They were tight so I told her that they were too small. She took one off, held it up against her foot (a sign that she watches and pays attention to everything we do) and said: 'Too Small, no more, Bye Bye'. She took the other shoe off, walked down the hall with her head down and put it in her show basket in her room. She sat down and said 'Bye bye, Dora flip flops, too small.' Picked up her Dora tennis shoes and said 'Mommy, these Dora shoes OK' and proceeded to put them on and run out of the room.

Isn't it amazing how much these little bitties can take over your whole life. They are truly an amazing gift from God. Of course there are some days when I feel completely overwhelmed and like it is sometimes too much, but then I quickly remember that she is my only living child so far and that I am so lucky to get to be her mommy. And then I take time to really thank Him for this prescious little one. I do thank Him that I have her here and that she is healthy. I still cry over the fact that she might be my only one, but she is amazing.

Going to get it out of my system and be positive for the rest of 2011

Am I the only person ready for 2011 to be over? I can't imagine that it is only me. I am going to complain today and 'try' to be positive for the remainder. In the past four months I have lost a baby, had to put my dear sweet kitty to sleep, my mom was diagnosed w/ a terminal brain tumor, our air conditioner/heat pump died on us and wait for it.......on top of all that our lap top died with all of our pics on it. It is at the shop now to hopefully at least get our pictures out and maybe to fix it.

So I'm definitely not going to say "what else could happen?" because I did that a week and a half ago and then the laptop died....HA!! So I will say that I am thrilled to have survived this year so far and still be sane and in one piece. Although, my husband might tell you that I am so far from sane....don't believe him. This year has sucked so far. I am now going to put my big girl pants on and face the rest of the year with a smile on my face. Just help remind me of that......... Happy Monday People!!!

Back to church

I am going to try to make it back to church today. I have only been to Sunday School once since my mom got sick. There are a lot of reasons, none of them really good. I am just so completely overly emotional right now and will cry at the drop of a hat. Not that it is unexpected or a bad thing, but it is something I am struggling with right now. I have prayed at least 10-20 times every single day and intend to do so every day. Just pray for me and my entire family. Pray Hard!!!!

Weekend plans

We are celebrating my SIL's birthday with breakfast on Saturday. Happy Birthday Melanie!!!

Then I am headed over to my parent's to spend some time w/ my mom. I am going to head up to her attic that day and raid her wreath stack. I have been in a crafty mood lately. I started a balloon wreath for Celia a few weeks ago and I need to finish it. I also want to do some of the yarn wreaths, but need to get some straw wreath forms. My mom has some grapevine wreaths and I am sure I can do something with some of them w/o losing my entire pay-check. (I promise John, I'll try) LOL!!! Here a few wreaths I am dying to try:

we'll see if any of them come to fruition.