I have been struggling with a lot lately. I am so very lucky and blessed to have a beautiful 21mo baby girl. I dreamed of her for years. I also still struggle with dreaming of a sibling for her. And maybe it is simply because I have gone through so much CRAP lately, but I am struggling with Cecelia right now. She doesn't want me to come near her these days. Now she is all about Mommy at night when it is bedtime, but other than that she absolutely screams her head off if I try to touch her. I know this sounds completely and utterly ridiculous, but it really hurts my feelings. Her regualr baby-sitter is on vacay this week so our parents are keeping her. My mom has had her Mon - today and John's parents will have her tomorrow and Friday. MIL has been taking her to VBS this week before she brings her to our house.
When she got there last night she literally lost her mind when I tried to hug her. I sat down on the couch with her for a second and she literally went insane. DH tries to help and calm her down, but she just won't with me. He sat down beside me while I was holding her and told her to give Mommy a hug. She said "No, I don't want it" so then he told her to tell me that she loved me and she said, "I don't, I won't" and proceeded to slap me in the face. Like I said I know it sounds insane, but I don't know how to deal with it. Please tell me that I am not alone in this struggle. I literally ended up in the bathroom crying last night. I think she hates me.
Is it just a stage that all little ones go through or should I prepare myself for a long hard road??