Saturday, January 14, 2012

I Miss You!

Dear Mama,

If you were still here, I would have rolled over and picked up the phone this morning to see if you wanted to do something today. The first morning that I actually forgot was the morning after Christmas. Even though I still felt really bad after being sick, I woke up and thought I wonder where Mama went shopping this morning because I know you would have already been home after running to either Cracker Barrel or Belk.

If you were still here, my heart wouldn't be breaking. If you were still here people at work would have a different reason to be talking about me other than the fact that at any completely random time, I am known to start sobbing uncontrollably at my desk. Don't worry, they'd still talk about me, just about something else. LOL!!!

If you were still here, I wouldn't be worried as much about Ma getting sick. I know that it will be OK, but I can't help but worry. I never imagined that you would go before her. She never imagined that either.

If you were still here, I wouldn't worry about Cecelia not remembering you. That breaks my heart because I never thought that was a possibility. When Ma got sick in 2010, we all thought that we were getting ready to lose her and here we are two years later without you.

If you were still here, my heart wouldn't be breaking. Oh wait, I think I already said that.



  1. Bless your heart. Such a beautiful post. [[hugs]]

    Jackie @

  2. joy, this is beautiful. your photos are precious.
    i love that you allow yourself to feel it all and don't keep it all bottled up inside.
    i pray for you each day <3
    much love to you!